A Twitter follower asked me this question this morning and there is SO much to say in response to that. If you've read this blog you know where this answer starts, if not what I mean is that, I just learned the term pussyboy last year around March--- all because of Devin Franco with the Big C Men of Twitter fame--- Jared and Cory---and their video on Pornhub. It was the first time I had ever heard of a bottom guy referred to as "pussy" I was very intrigued by that, and my research began. How I stumbled on the exact word 'pussyboy' is beyond me, but once that word was discovered, and with the research I was doing it all clicked, it all felt like home; and in the years time I've had so much time to think about it, about myself as a pussyboy, and what it means to me to be pussy.
If you've been reading other posts you know I am predominantly a bottom guy--- ie: pussy for men since my very first sexual experience with a man at eighteen. I knew that first time with a man I wanted to be the 'pussy' for him and even back in 1985, when that happened, the guy that topped me (who became my lover) called it pussy. His nickname for me was Kitten. I didn't quite see why he called it pussy at the time--- what I did see and understand was the term power bottom, and that I knew I was, and if I would have the full understanding at the time that in every single situation, with every single man----I've been with I am and I have been pussy. Plain & simple. Of course as I've said before, not every bottom guy is a pussyboy. And there are posts here describing exactly what is a pussyboy and how we think, or at least me, on MANY different topics.
In that first relationship, and all my relationships I've been the 'boiwife' type. I was/am very submissive, very passive and VERY effeminate in my behavior, in my habits and in my mannerisms. I'm the type to celebrate that effeminacy easily; I see nothing the matter with me in this way, and I don't fully understand the whole struggle over being effeminate or even "too effeminate". I do understand the struggle one faces when one is effeminate, however from all sides even from within the LGBTQIA+ community. I'll go even so far as to say, I really enjoy being emasculated, and none of those things came easily for me. I think we all feel pressure from "society expectations" of us and especially as men. But, for me, embracing the term and thinking of being pussy for MEN all of those expectations left and I was free to be myself finally.
It has been almost a year (August 2020) that I said in my post "#3rdgenderpussy Revised":
@fagdevon of Twitter tweeted out: "I’m nothing more than a life support system for my cunt. It’s meant to bring real Men pleasure!!" Immediate like and retweet from me because he gets it big time. That even his physical body is nothing more that the life support system for being nothing more than his cunt/pussy. I've felt this way since March myself, as nothing more than that and as I said above feel truly fulfilled when I'm like that.
Let me try to explain. I see my pussy as BEING my gender, if you will. Meaning not exactly female--- although, I do love being called "Daddy's girl", not exactly male either, boi possibly but that doesn't really fit anymore as I see myself as more girl. I don't mean wanting to be trans or a woman through surgery or hormones. But being a femme boi--- blurring gender, gender roles, and dress as "Daddy's girl". I need to do more research into non-binary before I can call myself that, but it seems I may fit there. My whole identity has become "being pussy for men", and granted that may sound extreme, but it is the brutal truth. Without my being that, I'm not much of anything at all, and not being of service seems like a complete waste of what is my life. Yes, it is that severe. Some might call it a sex addiction. I call it my life and my only way of thinking.
The other issue at hand in not being of service, and I have written about it as "the void" this empty feeling one gets when ones boipussy isn't stuffed or even after it as been. I've written a bit on the physical side of this issue but there is the mental side of this as well. That as I said a bit earlier, not being of service is a waste. I wish I saw that earlier in life, if I'm brutally honest, as it was a bit easier getting laid in my twenties and thirties than now at mid fifty and being the average non-gym going gay guy. It feels like time wasted, and not getting enough dick and there are hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of dicks serviced in my thirty-seven years of having gay sex. But even in that, it is not enough. It can never be enough, and I'm hoping it doesn't get harder to get laid the older I get.... that thought terrifies me as it does many gay men.
Being pussy also for me means complete submission, complete passivity, me NEVER ever touching my clitty, ruined orgasms through only pussy use, daily or more pussy training with dildos, keeping my pussy, taint and boi-ovaries hairless and my pubes trimmed very short, chastity cages, backless undies, sleeping nude and trying to find a Daddy. It also means that any MAN wanting to use me, may no questions asked. It means trolling hook up apps, bath houses, gay bars or anywhere else I can find guys. It means not only keeping track of the number of guys who fuck me, but also the ones who breed me. It means my pussy does all of my thinking.
It means at some level the "faggot mind set" that I've written about briefly on this blog. There are similarities and there are differences as well as overlap. One, as I've said before, one can be many things in many different arenas and that sure applies to sexuality.
